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I've had the depression bug since my sister died when I was one... Like serious, bad, cannot control mood swings and such... Smoking weed was about the only thing to keep these emotions in check. Unfortunately, its hard to get your life going if weed is your medicine... I've tried to kill myself legitmately once, with sleeping pills and jaeger. To my surprise I woke up that night... I was on anti depressants for 3 mos and it just killed my creativity for writing... That was 7yrs ago. Since then, I've been able to control the manic depression for the most part. Never fully trending back to plotting ways to off myself.

But now, I've dug another hole in my life. Talked shit to the absolute wrong people, and I think I've endangered not only myself, but my family as well. The only thing I can think of doing to solve this is removing myself from the situation permanently...

Under my 2 other usernames I had a lot of fun and frustration debating so many of you. It is truly a beautiful thing to have somewhere I know decent sports convos exist. Shit, even some of the score peeps post here, which is just unbelievably cool for someone who literally grew up listening to the station. Seriously, idc how much any of you think I hate you, I don't. I hate my life.

Sitting here about to cry posting this to you cretins. Fuck is wrong with me?

Thank you CSFMB for helping sharpen my sports knowledge, and most of all making me laugh. I appreciate all of you, especially the likes of OKC, Panther, KS, and even that man Brick... Thank you everyone. I don't have many friends, so I figured I'd bring this to you guys. Peace.

This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong.

conns7901 wrote:

This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong.

That's how I read it...

Krazy Ivan wrote:

conns7901 wrote:

This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong.

That's how I read it...

Me too...

Big Fan should prune his own post.

Bigfan, stop being a dick.

Big Fan should prune his own post.

Eaglo hasn't posted since his tough times thread on Oct 26.

Keeping Score wrote:

Eaglo hasn't posted since his tough times thread on Oct 26.

If I can be serious for a moment......

Jeff was upset at the board's unreliability last week. He said he's done for now.

Eagle is lurking....and he knows it!

Eaglo Jeff is flying...and he is flying.

The Original Kid Cairo wrote:

Good luck, and thanks for the shoutout.

Just be careful posting something like that on this board. Some people here will mock you for it years later. #experience

Just make sure you get some help. Some real help. Talk to a professional...it works.

#getoveryourself

Not everything on this message board has to do with you, not even Jbills reaching out for help.

The Original Kid Cairo wrote:

#getoveryourself

Not everything on this message board has to do with you, not even Jbills reaching out for help.

Author:	Jbi11z [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 12:03 am ]
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I've had the depression bug since my sister died when I was one... Like serious, bad, cannot control mood swings and such... Smoking weed was about the only thing to keep these emotions in check. Unfortunately, its hard to get your life going if weed is your medicine... I've tried to kill myself legitmately once, with sleeping pills and jaeger. To my surprise I woke up that night... I was on anti depressants for 3 mos and it just killed my creativity for writing... That was 7yrs ago. Since then, I've been able to control the manic depression for the most part. Never fully trending back to plotting ways to off myself. But now, I've dug another hole in my life. Talked shit to the absolute wrong people, and I think I've endangered not only myself, but my family as well. The only thing I can think of doing to solve this is removing myself from the situation permanently... Under my 2 other usernames I had a lot of fun and frustration debating so many of you. It is truly a beautiful thing to have somewhere I know decent sports convos exist. Shit, even some of the score peeps post here, which is just unbelievably cool for someone who literally grew up listening to the station. Seriously, idc how much any of you think I hate you, I don't. I hate my life. Sitting here about to cry posting this to you cretins. Fuck is wrong with me? Thank you CSFMB for helping sharpen my sports knowledge, and most of all making me laugh. I appreciate all of you, especially the likes of OKC, Panther, KS, and even that man Brick... Thank you everyone. I don't have many friends, so I figured I'd bring this to you guys. Peace.

Author:	bigfan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 11:46 am ]
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So you didn't just figure out you are bi polar at the age of 47, after you pretty much got everything you ever wanted in your life?

Author:	spmack [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 11:48 am ]
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Good luck to you, JBills.

Author:	Brick [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 11:50 am ]
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Good luck JBills, of the posters I don't like, you were one of my favorites. Hope it all works out and we can be talking about Tebow starting for the Jaguars next year.

Author:	Ugueth Will Shiv You [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 11:50 am ]
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This message board is taken too seriously.

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Author:	The Original Kid Cairo [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 12:04 pm ]
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Good luck, and thanks for the shoutout. Just be careful posting something like that on this board. Some people here will mock you for it years later. #experience Just make sure you get some help. Some real help. Talk to a professional...it works.

Author:	Krazy Ivan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 12:13 pm ]
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Disturbing. You should talk to somebody, J. We all have a tough go at it from time to time...

Author:	Frank Coztansa [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 12:18 pm ]
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This whole Jbills thing is one of the strangest things I've ever seen.

Author:	conns7901 [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 12:56 pm ]
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Jbi11z wrote: I've had the depression bug since my sister died when I was one... Like serious, bad, cannot control mood swings and such... Smoking weed was about the only thing to keep these emotions in check. Unfortunately, its hard to get your life going if weed is your medicine... I've tried to kill myself legitmately once, with sleeping pills and jaeger. To my surprise I woke up that night... I was on anti depressants for 3 mos and it just killed my creativity for writing... That was 7yrs ago. Since then, I've been able to control the manic depression for the most part. Never fully trending back to plotting ways to off myself. But now, I've dug another hole in my life. Talked shit to the absolute wrong people, and I think I've endangered not only myself, but my family as well. The only thing I can think of doing to solve this is removing myself from the situation permanently... Under my 2 other usernames I had a lot of fun and frustration debating so many of you. It is truly a beautiful thing to have somewhere I know decent sports convos exist. Shit, even some of the score peeps post here, which is just unbelievably cool for someone who literally grew up listening to the station. Seriously, idc how much any of you think I hate you, I don't. I hate my life. Sitting here about to cry posting this to you cretins. Fuck is wrong with me? Thank you CSFMB for helping sharpen my sports knowledge, and most of all making me laugh. I appreciate all of you, especially the likes of OKC, Panther, KS, and even that man Brick... Thank you everyone. I don't have many friends, so I figured I'd bring this to you guys. Peace. This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong.

Author:	Krazy Ivan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 12:57 pm ]
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conns7901 wrote: This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong. That's how I read it...

Author:	Mr. Hernandez [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:13 pm ]
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RIP...

Author:	doug - evergreen park [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:19 pm ]
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Krazy Ivan wrote: conns7901 wrote: This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong. That's how I read it... Me too...

Author:	Big Chicagoan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:20 pm ]
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doug - evergreen park wrote: Krazy Ivan wrote: conns7901 wrote: This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong. That's how I read it... Me too... Biggie, you have 4 people here who think this guy is about to kill himself. Can you use whatever info you have on him to contact the authorities?

Author:	Terry's Peeps [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:21 pm ]
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Hopefully it's just attention whoring. Which is what I think.

Author:	Gloopan Kuratz [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:58 pm ]
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Be careful. We dont need the Patreus internet police going through all our fake accounts.

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Author:	FavreFan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:54 pm ]
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Krazy Ivan wrote: Disturbing. I thought so too. Bills, find someone you trust to talk to. Hell, PM someone here that you've been cool with in the past. It's never too late in life to get back on track. Just take a step back, go exercise or something and find some perspective. Bigfan, stop being a dick.

Author:	Krazy Ivan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 1:56 pm ]
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FavreFan wrote: Bigfan, stop being a dick. Sun, stop shining.

Author:	bigfan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:03 pm ]
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The Original Kid Cairo wrote: Big Fan should prune his own post. #truth

Author:	FavreFan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:07 pm ]
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Keeping Score wrote: Eaglo hasn't posted since his tough times thread on Oct 26. If I can be serious for a moment...... Jeff was upset at the board's unreliability last week. He said he's done for now.

Author:	bigfan [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:08 pm ]
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Eagle is lurking....and he knows it!

Author:	Terry's Peeps [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:09 pm ]
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FavreFan wrote: Keeping Score wrote: Eaglo hasn't posted since his tough times thread on Oct 26. If I can be serious for a moment...... Jeff was upset at the board's unreliability last week. He said he's done for now. You are not a nice person.

Author:	Brick [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:09 pm ]
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bigfan wrote: Eagle is lurking....and he knows it! Eaglo Jeff wrote: Eaglo Jeff is flying...and he is flying.

Author:	Hawg Ass [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:10 pm ]
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So, SHARK and Eaglo are the same person.

Author:	KDdidit [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:24 pm ]
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Could just be a Elmhurst Shreve troll.

Author:	Douchebag [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:24 pm ]
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Sip wrote: The Original Kid Cairo wrote: Good luck, and thanks for the shoutout. Just be careful posting something like that on this board. Some people here will mock you for it years later. #experience Just make sure you get some help. Some real help. Talk to a professional...it works. #getoveryourself Not everything on this message board has to do with you, not even Jbills reaching out for help. I like this new guy.

Author:	Dr. Kenneth Noisewater [ Tue Nov 13, 2012 2:26 pm ]
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Sip wrote: The Original Kid Cairo wrote: Good luck, and thanks for the shoutout. Just be careful posting something like that on this board. Some people here will mock you for it years later. #experience Just make sure you get some help. Some real help. Talk to a professional...it works. #getoveryourself Not everything on this message board has to do with you, not even Jbills reaching out for help. He's been here 10 days and he's had enough of Kid.