I've had the depression bug since my sister died when I was one... Like serious, bad, cannot control mood swings and such... Smoking weed was about the only thing to keep these emotions in check. Unfortunately, its hard to get your life going if weed is your medicine... I've tried to kill myself legitmately once, with sleeping pills and jaeger. To my surprise I woke up that night... I was on anti depressants for 3 mos and it just killed my creativity for writing... That was 7yrs ago. Since then, I've been able to control the manic depression for the most part. Never fully trending back to plotting ways to off myself.

But now, I've dug another hole in my life. Talked shit to the absolute wrong people, and I think I've endangered not only myself, but my family as well. The only thing I can think of doing to solve this is removing myself from the situation permanently...

Under my 2 other usernames I had a lot of fun and frustration debating so many of you. It is truly a beautiful thing to have somewhere I know decent sports convos exist. Shit, even some of the score peeps post here, which is just unbelievably cool for someone who literally grew up listening to the station. Seriously, idc how much any of you think I hate you, I don't. I hate my life.

Sitting here about to cry posting this to you cretins. Fuck is wrong with me?

Thank you CSFMB for helping sharpen my sports knowledge, and most of all making me laugh. I appreciate all of you, especially the likes of OKC, Panther, KS, and even that man Brick... Thank you everyone. I don't have many friends, so I figured I'd bring this to you guys. Peace.

So you didn't just figure out you are bi polar at the age of 47, after you pretty much got everything you ever wanted in your life?

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"That's what the internet is for. Slandering others anonymously." Banky
“Been that way since one monkey looked at the sun and told the other monkey ‘He said for you to give me your fuckin’ share.’”

Good luck to you, JBills.

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Good luck JBills, of the posters I don't like, you were one of my favorites.

Hope it all works out and we can be talking about Tebow starting for the Jaguars next year.

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You do not talk to me like that! I work too hard to deal with this stuff! I work too hard! I'm an important member of the CSFMB! I drive a Dodge Stratus!

This message board is taken too seriously.

Good luck, and thanks for the shoutout.

Just be careful posting something like that on this board. Some people here will mock you for it years later. #experience

Just make sure you get some help. Some real help. Talk to a professional...it works.

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Kid Cairo's Boers & Bernstein YouTube Channel

Kid Cairo: 2013 March Madness Tournament Winner!

"Cowabunga? Cowa fucking piece of dog shit! This game is diarrhea coming out of my dick!"

Disturbing. You should talk to somebody, J. We all have a tough go at it from time to time...

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This is my signature...

This whole Jbills thing is one of the strangest things I've ever seen.

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This feels like a suicide note. I hope i'm wrong.

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That's how I read it...

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This is my signature...

RIP...

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"You can kill the revolutionary, but you can't kill the revolution."

Big Fan should prune his own post.

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Kid Cairo's Boers & Bernstein YouTube Channel

Kid Cairo: 2013 March Madness Tournament Winner!

"Cowabunga? Cowa fucking piece of dog shit! This game is diarrhea coming out of my dick!"

Me too...

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@audioidkid

Biggie, you have 4 people here who think this guy is about to kill himself. Can you use whatever info you have on him to contact the authorities?

Hopefully it's just attention whoring.

Which is what I think.

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This.

I thought so too.

Bills, find someone you trust to talk to. Hell, PM someone here that you've been cool with in the past. It's never too late in life to get back on track. Just take a step back, go exercise or something and find some perspective.

Bigfan, stop being a dick.

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Fare you well, fare you well
I love you more than words can tell
Listen to the river sing sweet songs
To rock my soul

Sun, stop shining.

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This is my signature...

Be careful. We dont need the Patreus internet police going through all our fake accounts.

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#truth

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"That's what the internet is for. Slandering others anonymously." Banky
“Been that way since one monkey looked at the sun and told the other monkey ‘He said for you to give me your fuckin’ share.’”

If I can be serious for a moment......


Jeff was upset at the board's unreliability last week. He said he's done for now.

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Fare you well, fare you well
I love you more than words can tell
Listen to the river sing sweet songs
To rock my soul

Farvio...

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Kid Cairo's Boers & Bernstein YouTube Channel

Kid Cairo: 2013 March Madness Tournament Winner!

"Cowabunga? Cowa fucking piece of dog shit! This game is diarrhea coming out of my dick!"

Eagle is lurking....and he knows it!

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"That's what the internet is for. Slandering others anonymously." Banky
“Been that way since one monkey looked at the sun and told the other monkey ‘He said for you to give me your fuckin’ share.’”

You are not a nice person.

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You do not talk to me like that! I work too hard to deal with this stuff! I work too hard! I'm an important member of the CSFMB! I drive a Dodge Stratus!

So, SHARK and Eaglo are the same person.

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2018
#ExtendLafleur
10 More Wins

Hi.

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Kid Cairo's Boers & Bernstein YouTube Channel

Kid Cairo: 2013 March Madness Tournament Winner!

"Cowabunga? Cowa fucking piece of dog shit! This game is diarrhea coming out of my dick!"

Could just be a Elmhurst Shreve troll.

I like this new guy.

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He's been here 10 days and he's had enough of Kid.

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You know me like that.