i once made a WATMM/IDM baphomet picture. fuck if i remember where it is tho. i made all or at least most of those guys a track about them being IDM superheroes who save the world tho so at least my contributions to the IDM saving the world front have been legit since the days of the hair club for IDM men (those dark times we dont speak of when aphex, squarepusher, and ceephax all cut their jesus/hair and it's like WTF IS GOING ON?!!? at least tom you can understand a little male pattern baldness and he would go on to upgrade his face with video but aphex and ceephax? dude that's defcon 4 or whatever is right next to total nuclear armageddon.

anyways, i've been putting in work on playlists on my youtube page so now i know that i have appx 150 rap songs on there, 55+ mixes, and i still havent finished getting all of the old electronic music tracks sorted. plus i even started a #greatesthits playlist to kinda trudge through the vast iniquitous sea of bullshit to find the better ones so you can start platying it and have good shit going right away, as opposed to a lot of the more/most recent stuff showing up atop the playlist just because it's newer.

oh and i made a couple'a new freestyles this morning. they're atop the "videos" section of my youtube and since they're raps the mp3s are @ http://sinicalypse.kaen.org/rapshit (as the mixes are in http://sinicalypse.kaen.org/mixes --- thank god i have free unlimited space/bandwith hosting from the UK in what i used to call "the rephlex minor leagues" at kaen.org --- wisp, ceephax, chris moss acid, and others have all had kaen.org pages. ofc with chris moss acid i need his version of popcorn, super techno party, and the won a speedboat song. those all crush it. dude had some legit mpments there so its nice to be amongst other talented people @ kaen.org

and yeah group therapy seems to be working for me pretty well since i can accept the fact that this stuff wasn't my fault and i was always good at this stuff, it's just for some reason NOBODY wanted to validate me ever. which led to a life of debauchery and drugs which led to the music/art/whatever you see there, which led to.... NOTHING! just a giant disorganized youtube page. but i'm organizing it now. really. give it a shot if you get bored because i bet you i could junk eminem in a pure freestyle battle =P

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and if anyone wants to hear a mix of me doing all of my old electronic music tracks (back when i created more than defaced music, but there's a good bit of defacing in there) then click right here and you'll be set for something like 28mins of your otherwise boring life it's the closest you'll ever come to attending a proper emessiah gig, knowing my luck =P

edit; and i made another good song over dinner last night, it's called our town and i nicked the beat from a playlist from you-know-who. i tell you this chick is beyond amazing at this point. i gotta hope she likes these things, plus inexorably being attached to the goodship sinicalypse cuz if anything ever happens to me like someone big/gish notices the armada of tracks i've got they're bound to notice her too and then what? who knows.

also got some older shit up like chicago state of mind and an old 05-06/ish freestyle where the picture i used of ol girl is worth the price of admission alone

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you know, as much as i hate to keep beating a dead horse here, i've had a pretty remarkable 24hr run of productivity.

i started off making easily my best freestyle/rap song ever yesterday and then later on in the day i finally took a stand against the menace that is aphex twin and finally this morning i got around to giving drum and bass a go and generally between these three (freestyle/improv) rapping endeavors i can say "wow i'm pretty good" and not feel like a total schmuck in doing so.

oh and for shits and giggles since i also DJ i also made a mix (no glitches) in the middle of the night. "i never sleep cuz sleep is the cousin of death" - nas either that or its like the billy joel episode of MTV cribs where katie lee points out the piano by their living room (why does nobody call it a dying room since you're technically doing that?) and says thats there for when billy has inspiration. welp i guess jimmy often has inspiration in the middle of the night. your results may vary.

welp, if you're gonna suck at life you might as well make sucking at life an artform, eh? lord knows i'm trying (for once. or twice or thrice i've honestly lost count at this point and when doctors are asking me if i have superpowers and if i expect to be a rich and famous rapper/dj soon, idk, what do you make of that? fortunately ghostbusters rules re; are you a god? didn't apply during my visit =)

hasta

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Those lyrics are something....

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TxjCUcqRwjo

welp then you gotta check out the track i made last night, again, i'm just doing freestyle/improv rapping off the top of the head to show off how my raw skill level has increased 5fold, but still hot damn i'm legit rapping now. and not even just about that beautiful girl who i'm so fucking totally marrying someday

speaking of her, this is her, accompanied by an artsy fartsy message/caption for her off of my instagram @sinicalypse / @anvilbait



i can work with that. and i can also assure you that despite being 19 years younger than me she's smarter than me and way more twisted than me, like a perpetual pro wrasslin promo of bullshit that spins me right round baby right round until i'm dizzy and looking for a barf bag.... and then i try to have sex (again) and, honestly, even boners/cranking-them-out are better when you're looking at / tjinking about her. and since everyone lies to me i'm thinking that when she was telling me about how she's the town whore; everyone knows you give her a couple'a xanax and those pants are coming down and she fucks til she pukes then fucks summore and yeah. after our magical week of superconnection when she started hanging out with other guys and flaunting weed and money and the way cuter than me new young boyfriend, man, i actually blocHAVE A NICEked HER snapchat cuz it was causing me so much pain to see her rocking out life without me.... so when i made that last mix i linked to previously and the first track was left alone by lateef the truthspeaker man it fucking amazed me that she actually listened to the song and did what it said to do. ofc i'll never do it (leave her alone) but then again we only need one person out there's stuff to do AND WELP, I'LL CARRY TURCH WHER=E00=====022 22222222222222222222

CRC ERROR / MEMORY DUMPED AT EXCCEPTION BLOCK #341AD. THANK YOU AND HAVE A NICE DAY]]DINCERELYKS2IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII#SINI

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so hey i turn 40 tomorrow so i think once that happens i can officially blame my love of matisen (let alone the whole rap career) on a midlife crixis. yeah see i'm clearly facing my mortality in a way where i chase a young hot woman alongside a young hot man's game in order to convince myself that i'm turning 30 instead of 40 (nevermind that i've been told i look 30ish instead of 40ish, and that i was consistently told that i looked mid-20s as i ascended thru my 30s... so i guess i'm consistent there.

so last night at 2am i ripped two new tracks (and literally got yelled at by my dad for being up at 2am and rapping loud, read: saying motherfucker every other word cuz it would be one thing if i was singing (is it a good time to mention my idea to cover 2pa c in a sinatra type fashion? just imagine the suit, the mixed-drink+cigar powerhand and the finger-snapping alongside classic pac like can't c me) so we've got two lyrics born (i call him #permtipsguzzardo cuz he had an advice column on the old quannum.com website and one time he almost exclusively gave perm tips. combine this with the old simcity2000 macintosh money cheat code (porntipsguzzardo) and well you can see i'm clearly a sadomasochist if i'd rather have perm tips than porn tips.

SPOILER: I DONT NEED THE PORN TIPS =P ANYWAYS... i also made a new mix but its weird, even tho youtube says its blocked because the aphex twin track is copyright claimed and the video still doesnt show up in my video list, the link still works? wow DAMN. saves me linking to sinicalypseDOTkaenDOTorgSLASHmixes. but who wants mp3s of this garbage anyways?

i think i have one url left so here's that mix i made in mp3 format off of my site only one track gets glitches so i try to keep it civil for the grownups who dont like my machine gun sound =)

as always, sorry about the sadonecrophilia bestiality (beating a dead horse) but looking down at it, man, i swear that horse was sneering at me and you know what we do to sneering horses around here, right? they're like windmills and i'm like don quixote in that regard =P

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After watching succession last night..Id have thought there was no way I'll hear a worse rap than L to the OG by Kendell Roy. Congrats.

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Kendall's rap was hilariously awesome.

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Hilarious.. Yes, guys got no shame or self awareness. His family was embarrassed for him.

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Hey a cpl weeks back.i got sick and when i got out of it i fekt good enough to start creating tracks again so i'm crack in the saddle again.

Today i think i made the best pure love song i've ever done and recently like a day or two after i awoke from.my slumber ol girl decided to crack me up by posting some cutesy n cuddly IG photos with some pretty boy who raps like this and it just made me go LOLWAT AND kinda spit-take like what in.the actual fuck? Well this track shows you where my head is at and umm...

Yeah trust me this girl loves me. She just demands that i.stop sucking at life and i demand that she get off her luxury rehab fashion show tour to come and save me. Another stalemate. But i'm at the point where i'm about to grow up and just improve myself and if she wants to"win" by staying away forever, well, at least i loved being in.love you know what i'm saying? Maybe i can impress.lame pretfy chicks with under 10 songs about them?

Anyways heres to.hoping i can harness these good vibes snd eventually get that piece of ass i've needed for so long... but would wait a lifetime for cuz she's the one. Its a pity she plays the game like the God that She is.

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"He is a loathsome, offensive brute
--yet I can't look away."

Yeah i know i'm a creepy weird "stalker" and allbut c'mon you dont think a chick with hundreds of pictures of herself on the internet would hate a song like this about her being out there? I tried dude. I twisted all my pain, self-inflicted and self-manufactured into a bunch of art about her just cuz like... man. I hope she never forgets about me.

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welp, while my raison d'etre for making rap songs is always highly queationable ("my imaginary girlfriend can beat up your wife") still i link to think i did a hell of a job in the imaginary GF dept. Srsly if she ends up being real i end up looking REALLY Good in being her PR dept.. or we could be just a couple'a medsed/drugged up weirdos thinking we're any good at anything.

I had a prolific day making songs today:

1) re-recorded and wrote/recorded the first verse of "where is mission control?!" (aka my attenpt to spin my crazy skitzo stories into a work.of fiction that culminates in the #CrisisOfInfiniteDoctors on tiktok and other platforms. I b Sically realized "the story" wrote itself out in front of me IRL last year so now i just gotta re/tell it as fiction =)

2) i decided i wanted to do a "terry boers of the rap game" song so i tried. Slilled back into my cliche of ol girl for a bit, but hey in case im crazy just let me enjoy my quixotic quest to have an amaxing secret/undercover/invidible girlfriend mmmk?

And for the white knights out there, she can do worse than having some weird lil internet legend genius boy rap about ger like she's god in disguise, amirite? =]

3) so ol girl has gone by matilda on and off for a year or so and in one of her playlists i saw this song alt-J Matilda which was about matilda from the professional, so if she means to imply she's that matilda then i'm leon the professional! Sweet deal. So i did my version of that acoustic folk song and yeah i slip out a lot of truth at the dnd about why i hope she can save me uf my dreams/nightmares ever come true)

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4) then i decided to do a song about why imaginary girlfriends are the best.... you know, for the lulz

And finally

5) i did a song called "buzzkill" about me deciding to give up all this insane art show bullshit i euphemistically call my rap career and point out what a loser i am for ever believing in my delusions and yeah, hopefully somebody here enjoys it. The beat is real.nice!

So i made 5 tracks today... or well 4.5 and u know what? Nobodys ever gonna notice or actually listen and go "wow this dude says some far out shit, i wonder what he'd sound like in a proper studio surrounded/flanked by actial pros who know how to make real music. If you could harness sini's raw skill and help mould/guide it into sometbing with commercial..... nah, dont go there. Thats the day when theyd discover the asteroid thar is coming towards earth oromising to end life as we know it by crashing unto kansas. You know, the day i'm finally able ro get laid since jan 1 2008 =P

In a way it really sucks to be me while in anothet way its so beautiful that you'll cry wanting to give thanks to the creator who came up with tbis shit, but be cageful with that cuz pll are looking for any excuse to 5150 you if you say too much OBVIOUS FALSEHOOD AND CONJECTURE while going around tryimg to promote your free internet music which, best case scenario, if discoveted couldbspRk a bexroom musician/rapper/artist movement that blows by media gatekeepers and gives a new generation of incel basement dwellers that little soark of hope that they too can rise up out of their basements take to the streets snd feel like they deserve a shot to mack on the hotteat girl/s in town cuz they did some awesome shit in thT basement.

So hey hall.have seen me... could i be the face of the incel uprising? You tell me cuz ive technically/semantically been mgtow/incel basemenr dweller for a loooooonnnggg tike now, and while MANY of you will simply wisecrack that this is where i belomg so plz stY there, if you rhink about it man.... itd be the most beautiful story in thebworkd to tell. 5yrs of forbidden mYbe/love? Action? Solipsism? Neo/Matrix shit? Social commentary on the COVID-19 op?

All rhere. I just gotta make ut and keep everything tied rigether instwad of going waaahhh i want my hot young genius girl now! You know, the one qho might bebthebreal peidoner compared to me cuz other ppl m8ght have noticed her iffbthe charts intelligence and ability b4 i did!

Indeed, my wondwrland is a run.place to hang out in. Too bad i donr gave any relationships with an upstart media company/empire like, say, amazon ro be able ro give thek first crack at the streaming/TV/movie rights to telling thebstoey if my uniaue battle qith mental illness over the years. I mean i'm just a lowly warwhousw woeker at amazon so its not like you can go from AA >> Yard Marshal L3 to AMZN TV/music/video owven tho if my wonderchild imaginary girlfriend ends uo being real then.... oh no #HereGoHellCome!!!!!!11 - Calvin Tran

Thanks for reading. All.my individuL rap.songs available 4 sowbload @ httpCOLONSLASHSLASHsinicalypse.kaen.org/trax for the ra0.musics in mp3 or httpCOLONSLASHSLASHsinicalypse.kaen.org/mixes for the DJ m8xes in mp3 otherwise its HTTPCOL9NSLASHSLASHyoutube.com/user/sinicalypse for the motherlode

Sry to distract all from your othetwide glorious evenimg reeling in bears defeat, but over the weekend i had a mental health episode where i listened to some of thebstuff ive made within the last year and im.like HOLY SHIT ITS REALLY GOOD so my mental illness wants me to try and promote it like it could ever end up.being a proper job/career/etc evwn rho im at AMZL (amzn logistics) and 2yrs in dinally got my 1st real promotion so i could break the $20/hr barrier within a few yrsm.. fingersbcrossed

I do it all for you (the ppl who secrwtly like my shit but stay off my nuts cuz minnesota is truly a friendly place all year round!) So thx 4 that and bebsurebto drop a comment and/or dislike when you wanna tell me im a creepy pedo.loser who.ought tonswek professional help. Dont get me started on thT!

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Sini.....I'm not in your target audience, so my opinion probably means nothing. That being said, I've heard a lot worse coming from my kids bedrooms than the stuff you've recorded.

Be you, Sini...be you! \m/\m/

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don't worry dude. when you bop a ltwisted little fangirl with ~40 tracks about her (THAT STAND THE TEST OF TIME) from your 2wk examination of her pstyche/soul/game/etc without any physical contact to let doctor me do my thang, man, i'm tellin you.... this b1tch is the truth

AND A WISE MAN NAMED J-LIVE ONCE TOLD ME YOU CANT HIDE FROM THE TRUTH BECAUSE THE TRUTH IS ALL THERE IS

if there are never any IRL consequences for my actions worship me like a god. otherwise i might disappear and end up... umm...... idk/idc/etc #ThankYouFuckYouBye

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also, umm, she has quite a few theme songs. this one is my personal favorite whenever i see youtube lile LOL C'MON ECDDIE and it teases me with MIX 50+ TRACKS and i see eddie grinning like a goddamn fool i know i'm in that makeshift patriot's head you know what i'm saying? FLY MY FLAGS AT FULL FUCKING MAST FULL FUCKING BLAST!!!!!!11

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and uh.... wow this is new to me and hopefully y'all too

again we're talking about legit IRL consequences of other chicks getting jealous of (what) maticakes (got). so what can they do? #LevelUpB1tch

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[url=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f70vYOHlkps]lol did sluggo just call me LRH? if he did i'll junk him in battle harder than sage francis / xaul zan did. be careful what you wish for when you wanna date divinity[/iurl]

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